so much for week 1

So the first week went by and I have to start back at day ONE..
It is all good
why though do I have a hard time sticking to something when it is positive for me? But when it is neg I don't.. OH I know because it takes work to make it work and doesnt to not..
 so what else do i have to say about this..
make a list .. just what the doctor said to not do as I beat myself up when I do not get he list done.. so i need to take a look at this..

make a list and be proud of what i do get done on it! there I go..

so that said
off to make a list

how to get and keep a habbit

I know that there is a rule.. 21 day to form a habit another 21 to keep.. so I have to try and really pick 3 habits and try this.. that way maybe 1 of them will stick..

So

1) Youversion daily
2) Journals (online and in writing) Online one maybe someone reads it maybe not.. gotta figure out what to put in it.. for it to be fun than figure out how to get it out there from peeps to read
3) YMCA at least 2-3 times a week

So that is all I got for now..

Yes I am back again,. What can keep me doing this on a reg. basis,. I think I need to make a list each night of the things I need to do reg.. and after awhile it will be come habit.

Bible time and Bible journal
Feelings and how day was journal  maybe I can make them into 1 but I think I like idea being seperate.. I could do one in am and one pm Probally the feelings and day went at night.. and make bible time in the AM

I am doing good with my eating.. at least most of the time..

Swimming more..

Idk maybe I will blog daily too.. lets see..

Where are you my blog

(2/2) nto the Bible

(1/2) So i swam today..weighed myself have Gaines 20 pounds ..what i really want fir myself is back yo healthy eating Ans exercise
.but most of all really get i

bucket list

I have a "bucket" list, somewhere.. think on my nook and in a journal (somewhere). i think it is time to find it and check things off and add to it.. that is all I got for now.. maybe I will come back and give a few or all of my bucket list.

ghosts spirits

I believe in them.. do you?

I  believe that I have loved ones that are watching over me. I feel their presence at different times. One that I feel is someone I never met, but he was my grandfather or would have been. I think he passed away before I was adopted.
 I know my Nana is near me, when ever I think about her, as she is when I am not. She keeps me strug in faith and  being true to myself. Miss ya nana but you know that. I can't wait to play cards with ya.
Frankie- yard sales will not be the same. I will always think of you and look for things that remind me of you. I can;t wait to meet ace.. hope you have those mules there too..
Mark- hmm what can I say. I would never have met him if I hadn't lost my leg.. ( than again there are many people I would not have met) Mark was like another dad to me. He was one of few people that I have ever trusted with my darkest secrets. I found it comforting when I moved to OHIO to find a building of his faith in my back yard.

There are many others that have touched me in many ways that have passed away.. I feel that at times they are there too,... I mean why would I be doing something and someone I knew that passed away comes into my mind and I think okay I get it know.

Okay whoever reads this may think I am nuts.. as I know some read, ,, maybe you that do (not you annie.. hehe I think i can guess what u would put) read it can relate but are not ready to share , or go back to the you are nuts..

okay im done with this little blog

night to all.. including my helpers from above.. still love you all ... so very much.. and if any of you want to let me know your with me to night.. it be okay :)

free things..

Free things you have the martial things.. like I get in the mail.. shampoo, drink packets, lotions, all sorts of things. Yes these things are fun to find in the mailbox. But the best free things are LOVE, FRIENDSHIP, COMPASSION, ... YOU add to the list..

(2/2) my choices ..I have learned from all my choices the bad and the good..I would not be here where I am and I like where I am...are you?

(1/2) Okay earlier I talked about change. I have thought many times if only ..if I did this or didn't do that or if I did do that ..thing is..I am who I am for

(2/2) s you read this..there is someone ..

(1/2) Time...is funny..it is short...because you may lose some one as you read this..long because someone is far away ..call that one that your thinking about a

change

So we all have changes in our life. 

Job,where we live,who we talk to, where or what we eat.. the list can go on..

Now let see.. Job.. promotion may be a good thing. and it could be bad..

                               demotion again good and bad..

how you may ask ok pro- more money, better things- may have more time with family..con- less time with family -longer hours.. see some the pros can also be cons

How about a move.. 

How about a vehicle

Change in what you eat

I was trying to change something a few years back.. Someone I really look up to said something like...If the change you are trying to make isn't changing.. change the way you are changing .. and repeat til the change is what you need.

My next change is what I eat, Some days are better than others. BUT I do not beat myself up as I use to.. that is a positive change.. not to say I never do, it is just less often

change

change

change

change

Allergies are for none not even.birds

Teat2

back on track

I really need to get back on track.. I know I am doing good. But I am slipping on my eating.. still no gluten for the most part.. ist the coke and ice cream .. next time not milk shake but smootie..

Test

Test

what could it be?

Well I am not sure if it 1 thing or the combination of all.
 Med Increase
Less Caffeine
Lowered Gluten
Exercise

But I have more GOOD than bad...

So I will continue.. Think about 8:30 I will have a smoothie today.. already feel like I ate enough,. way to much root beer ( sugar high)..

Tried the gluten free pizza from Domino's  was YUMMY!

I think I will make a separate blog for the trip :)

well I am hoping I get a reply for church.. would actually like to go..

that be all for now

Monday.. wishing it were Sunday

Hey wait there is a song.. MANIC MONDAY.. sorta feeling that way.. have my mind raacing on what I WANT to get done and what NEEDS to get done.. SO I have gotten 2 of the 3 needs done, that are outside the house. I figure I can run out to Ontatrio Thursday.. I may run to Lexington today.. (lex is a want)

When I get home I have to set timer and get to what needs to be done there...
Anyway I ma just rambling the thoughts.. no need to actually put them all down here

The chair is awesome love the new seat..

The gluten thing is going so so.. i could be doing better.. yet I could be doing a ton worse/. Yeah think I will go to kroger and see what they have .. so I know where it is and all..

So ready for my trip.. gotta get the bus ticket.. ill try do that today..

Okay over and out.. ill check in later...

MY Mothers Day

I  have had a beautiful day! Was able to go out to eat.. my meal was free.. did a little around the house.. had a bubble bath and than a milk shake..waiting to go to church.. than home and bed by 11.


Seeing if I can get up b4 9 each day.. setting alarm for 530 that is my goal.

Mother's Day

To day is Mother's Day. It is a special day just for mom's. Know there are all kinds of moms. I feel that you do not have to give birth to be a mum. I have a mum , she adopted me. Chris, shes like a mum and she is a "step-mom" There are a few others for me.


My point is this moms, aunts, sisters, gandmas, techers, fostercare, and  others are moms.. So just because some one does not "have" a child, a child may SEE them as a mother figure.

another beautiful day

So I woke up today to a friend stopping by to get me. I went and helped her and another friend. I logged all her movies all 700+ of them. It was a nice day. I was going to clean today, but that is still here and can still be done. 


Tomorrow I will work on my list of things I want to get done.. and will go to church.

beautiful day

I set out today on a mission. My list of things in hand. All was going as planned, until, the bus driver was late and I missed the bus that I wanted. Okay no problem that was an extra thing I wanted to do. So I wait for the next bus. OOPS 3 power chairs. Sorry this is case of FIRST come FIRST get.. and me and my fellow rider were the 1st 2 there. :) So off to Walgreen's I go, oh dear, they have to call the doctor. There are not enough  directions for the med. UMM you filled it last month.. Okay I pay for my things.. date book, candy and some other things that I grabbed. I mean I did roll around waiting for the med.  So on bus once again. Yeah  Get off bus and head to the lib. I get on line for a few minutes, than get my 2 movies I had on hold.. Now I am off to get parking placard. Than I go and get ice cream and roll up to the caruesol , I giggle there is a tow truck stalled with a car in tow. I sat around and ate my ice cream. He had a dead battery.-- the rest the day was pretty much easy flow.. beautiful beautiful day..

I am blessed gratitude

A few people have told me to make a list of things I am grateful for. so I am going to do it again.

God
My kids
My family
My friends
Sun and moon and stars
the birds that sings the dogs that bark..(all animals)
the flowers (even though I am allergic)
the teachers that teach our kids
the pastors,preachers, fathers that give us the word of God
the doctors that are there to heal
the laughter of kids..
seeing adults act like kids
those that protect us to remain free..

this is a small list in no certain order..

gluten free

So I have decided to try and do the no-gluten diet. I really thought it would be harder than it is.. little steps and I think I can do it.. I got a few things today.. thanks to my daughter..I don't know when I will feel the changes as I have not being doing it long.. week or so .. So I will right more abt that later.. the week has been awesome/ so more later

wonderful day

I has a beautiful day.. my birthday was just fabulous. all I got for today

neurofibromatosis depression and other things..

I was told as a teenager that i had this disorder. I was also told I couldn't have kids. I read up on it, the little I found said that it was 50/50 chance. I took that chance and gave it to God.This disorder is different in everyone that has it. For me I have dealt with learning problems, bipolar,cancer, lumps and mumps. I am not sure the bipolar is part on the NF. I just know I have it.

As I get older, the bumps and lumps seem to appear more and more. I was never self conscious about them. Some days lately I am. I have moments of "where is my leg" moments of crying for no reason.

Today has to continue to be a good day, it just has to be.. I am going to try hard to not get down, sad.. these tears of nothing can stay away..

so that said.. to all the readers... know that I am okay..  so today...

gluten

So, here I am again.. I have decided to try and limit gluten... Also want to get into smoothies for one meal a day..

more later

tears

So today has been a teary day.. even though there were many positive things.. game with kids.. a group.. idk.. just thought id type it out..see i can figure it outl.. guess not..

wonderful day

So today was awesome. I have been taking meds on a daily basis. I am getttin up and out.. MUCH MUCH less time on line. 

I ate well all day to.. I did have a polar pop, but really did not finish. I just gotta keep on keeping on. IF so than the more healthy things I do the more I do it the more it will stick... That said I did good today.. and with that I am going to go.. 

Did it, well mostly

So I set off to day to accomplish a few things.. I took my meds. I ate well... well for the most.. that is where the "mostly" comes in.. I do not think I needed the cheese and crackers. But over all I did good. 


Spent some time outside with the boys. Land lord and some of his tenants.. I guess he is close with them.. they help him clean up apartments. 


The new neighbor "may" be a single male my age :)


Okay wont put my hopes up but hey.. 


Oh did 3 loads laundry.. folded and away.. 15 minutes on the hand bike.. 


guess after all the crackers and cheese.. and the soon to be A&W is okay... moderation..

Another Monday's Ramblings

Here I am. There I go. Where I end, Only God will know.

Over the last week I have spent time with many different people. Some for hours, some for minutes and a few for a mirror seconds. I am relearning that some times ya gotta just listen, also times you have to say to yourself, I can tell some one else. (this happens when you cannot get in a word in edgewise, or if you start you get cut off). It is what it is.

21 + 21 = 42 So first 21 you create, second 21 it becomes habit. I have known this for a long time.. So hearing it last night I am looking at these things..

My meds. Since putting into a daily. boxy thingy, I take them daily. imagine that. (on week 3)

Eating breakfast. Again I have already started this... but not sure when so is it already a habit? Well I am saying today is day 1. Just to make sure I am doing it daily.

the BIG  lets START this WEEK is the YMCA.. M-- hand bike....W--Swim....F.... Row

Do each for 20 minutes.

That is all I have for this Monday Morning

this funk I

I need to get outta this funk.. okay not okay okay.. way not okay.. more than not olay way okay.. i use my coooping coppnign what ever it is skills.. some time works some times not.. argh is all i can say... dont know what time I will fall asleep.. guess its time to go try and see..

my NOOK

I am trying to get back into reading..  that is why I bought a NOOK which right now is doing nothing but words with friends.
I have many aps.. ap to track what i eat, ap to track aps .. tic tac toe, 4 in a row. card games... slots alarm clock ( has to be on.. hmm) angry birds  (seas and space) zoo games , before i die.. organize my self aps ( abt 10) all do abt the same thing.. lada da...oh bible aps.. 4 i can see right now.. do i use them sadly no.. (struggling with that)...

whats the point to this block you may ask... well guess what.. you do not have to get the point I do.. and I get I gotta use the NOOK more.. hmm now to set this blog up on it..

 that be all

kids say the craziest things

So here I am, just rolling into Great Clips to get a trim..8 yup 8 kids in there.. 6 to one lady (3 hers 3 his) anyway.. they all look, than ask (mom) what happen to her?? I jumped in.. i was sick and the doctor had to take it.. the usual easy way to start off.... than one girl asks about my fibromas.. love it when kids ask.. only way they learn.. I said someting like .." docotor's told me that the unasked question is the stupidiest  one" well one little boy says that not it.. its actually a Chinese? proverb and rattled something off.. dang kids are smart

beautiful day

What a sun filled lovely day,

Though the plan I had hoped for did not happen. That didn't let my day be anything but wonderful.

I spent time with both boys , trying to help with school.  Was able to get a lot done with one with minor stress... and basically nothing with more stress with the other.. comma's hmmm cause and effect.. percents.. relearning all..

Hoping tomorrow is nice.. have to go with one the guys to the dentist.. wee better plug in the chair..giggle..

I am getting in touch with my inner childhood... checked out many books from the "children's" area..
 Well that is all I have for right now.. 37 minutes til Idol.. have to work on cityville and read some of those books..

ants

Ants .. think ill get the movie.. just to giggle.. I have ants I have cleaned almost everything.. will do more tomorrow.. no more eating anywhere but the table..

shopping went well.. did good.. had fun.. love hanging out with my kids..

got my binder started.. and yeah have day 2 of blogging...

gonna try and start something else.. putting food out to eat to i remeber to eat right .. got a basket.. will add cards for the fridg. freezer thing.. I gotta eat right.. this eat whatever is makingme gain weight back...
so tomorrrow

is
take medsl eat right...
lib..
group..
y...
journal
help kids..
 nite

couponing

So we are slowly getting back into couponing .. the tick is going to be gettting what we need.. and gettin things free and stocking up or donating.. :)
we shall see what happens tomorrow .. and okay i t=stink at typing..
 time to get some sleep. going to set alarm.. hope to get up straightne room. and get a few things done before we head out.. and i have to try hard to make it to see Melissa
..

i dunno

 dunno
I dunno why I do this .. i come and do a few days than stop.. how does one get into doing it daily.. what if I say something and some one reads it and takes it the wrong way.. not that it is my problem I wont let them rent space in my head..

Something happened recently on FB. All I can say is SPAM happens.. before one accuses the person why not ask.. it was taken care of, though it makes me really wonder how it happened and how it got blown up like it did.. spam comes delte the person.. than oh yeah question after ??

If anyone involved with this.. read this.. um only the 5 of us.. know.. unless you have told other people.. I pray that in future IF this happens.. question first before judging.. that can hurt..

okay enough on that..its done its over enough said

SOO me.. well I am tired of doctors.. tired of running here and there.. my chair probaly has more miles a week... glad it doesnt take gas or id me stuck home.. hmm sometimes i like that.. but it is noce to get out and do things on my own..

yes i still struggle with asking for help..

OH new cell phone.. love it.. also love how it added ALL my FB friends.. thankfully no bobs as when i say BUG it thinks I say BOB.. poor bob would really wonder about me.. So slowly dleting hundreds of names..

okay going to add BLOG to myt daily calendar,,, now if IU can get in habbit of looking at it daily we will be on a rolll lol get it I rolll..
Oh that reminds me.. ill tell people im going for a walk.. they question walk>> i thought you didnt walk.. OKAY all WALK = ROLLL either way... :)

sunday morning

It is Sunday morning . sitting on couch at daughters.. it is eerie quiet in here,, with a sniffle, crack snap here and there.. and a giggle or 2 tossed in..

passwords

so like um.. me and passwords do not get along.. so like i am going to change them to almost all the same...so that is what I am working on..

glorious day

I may have woke up 3 hours later than I wanted. But, that did not stop me from having a great day. My swim was   totally awesome. Group well it was as okay. I am tired of one lady complaining that she has only 50 a week to spend..One these days I am going to just leave the room, or I might just go off. The doctor appointment went well..
After that I got on bus.. Ky was there we went food shopping :)
Now home relaxing.. Going to work hard on list of things I want to get done tonight.

Idle tonight.

so i swam quarter of a mile...goal this month 4 Miles.. Leave 3.75

Okay so this is my cell blg..hope i get followers

okay so like

So like i set up so i can blog from my phone.. but that made a new blog... so I guess that = 2 blgs.. one when I am sitting here and one when on the go.. just thought I could link them... any ideas to the ghost that read this.. sigh.. wonder how I get this out there not that anyone would really want to read my ramblings..

Where is my blog

A light came on

I woke up very early today. This was not by choice.  By 8am I had eaten, dressed, done a half dozen other things, and was in the car with a friend heading to Cleveland.

The trip to Cleveland over all was a good one.. The good part.. I am still neurologically sound, I will have to wait, which deep down I knew, to find out the bottom answers to all the spots on my lung. Will call Monday and see if the PET scan came be scheduled. After that is done and in we will go forward from there.

I took a nap once home and really isolated.. but the good in that is I am aware of it. I have a plan.. okay before I say my...plans take side trips all the time..

Plan for tomorrow.. FEB. 1st.. Get up ... make bed.. do my mini morning list..
Go out to Y,center and maybe kroger..

Want to swim more this month.. last month stunk.. really bad...I have to stop letting crap get to me..

Well off more tomorrow.. I HOPE I can get at this nightly..